The National Novel Writing Month is soon upon us this November. I have actually dreamed of writing a novel with index cards with chapters numbered out. I can’t decide whether to write fiction or memoir. In years past I wrote fiction romance stories about romantic love I knew nothing about. I rationalized that if I wrote about romantic love I could manifest it in my life. Instead I have broken abusive codependent relationships that triggered my mental breakdowns. I attempted in 2003 to write my memoir but it came out in a series of poetry. If I could be anything I am a writer. I am mad at myself for not keeping a promise to myself to buy a computer with my first paycheck. I let my coworker talk me out of getting the computer because she said it wasn’t important, but it was important to me. So I have my cellphone and notebooks to work with. I can always use the library to write my words on the library computer. I think when it comes to a draft I prefer to hand write my story and then when it comes to editing to retype. So this October I am planning my writing for November. Anybody out there writing in NaNoWriMo 2016?
I am overjoyed that I won Camp NaNoWriMo this year! I have had an amazing time writing and making friends. My challenge though is keeping in contact with those new friends that I met during camp. It seems that during the Camp everything is so exciting, but once Camp is over campers part and go their separate ways.
by Wenona Gardner
I am so excited! I just crossed the finish line of reaching 100% of my 10,000 word count goal for Camp NaNoWriMo! I was able to successfully cross the finish line even though I have a full time job. I published all of my poetry on this WordPress blog. I feel like a real writer. I have been living on disability for 20 years and I struggled to write a book. But lately I have been writing much more now that I have the structure of a full time job than I did with all the free time I had on disability. I seem to be making much more strides writing than I ever thought possible before.
I am going to continue to write and get a high number. I am excited about the idea of writing more. I crossed the finish line 3 days before the official winning begins and before the 15 days are up for writing.
This is my Power Angel Tarot Reading for July 16, 2016. I am doing a Situation Reading of what I need to know now about my current situation?
EIGHT OF ARIEL
I take great pride in my excellent work! Practice makes perfect. I will be getting extra training on July 19 I will be getting first aid and CPR training. It is also recommended I take the Intentional Peer Support state training, and WRAP Facilitator training from Region Six. I also have trainings through work on the July 26. Also well as trainings offered through iNAPS and DBSA Peer Specialist Leadership Center.
The card says I am doing excellent work and to take pride in what I do. That there is great motivation to be a success, and your willingness to invest in your long-term goals will pay off. There is indeed much to learn including seminars and job training.
I do believe in new beginnings. I anticipate exciting changes coming. I expect prosperous new opportunities with movement forward. While the idea of change can be worrying, I must trust that and know that the Universe wants me to be happy. Unexpected events are meant to point you in a direction that will bring you a more joyful and fulfilling life. I ask Archangel Jeremiel to give me clear understanding where I am headed.
Passing the state Peer Specialist exam and becoming a Certified Peer Support and Wellness Specialist has indeed opened doors for me. I successfully started over with Peer Specialist training, passing the State exam, and getting hired at C.A as a Peer Specialist Now with a steady income I have opportunities that I never had before. I also have a Region 6 voucher to look for a new apartment and I have begun calling places.
Hidden Influences are stability and efficiency. I would greatly benefit from the counsel of a skilled mentor who can give me invaluable advice. Archangel Uriel please provide brilliant and new ideas on how to be a success. Time to take the lead. What I need right now is logic and order to help me to feel empowered and to be in control of the direction my plans are taking me. Stability a promotion. Ambitious plans. An encouraging and diplomatic leader.
My co-workers have been training me and giving me new insight into my job. I am growing by leaps and bounds.
KING OF GABRIEL
Keep my eyes on the big picture; leave the details to others. Experience that leads to success. Genuine concern for others. Those around you expect and want you to take the lead. Let your enthusiasm and natural charm shine through. Creativity is the key to a successful endeavor. A magnetic and determined leader. Someone with broad vision who can motivate people to greatness. Inspirational. Generous. Forceful. Ingenuous. Dramatic. Driven. Enthusiastic. Genuine concern for the welfare of all. Unexpected money.
I want spirituality and a love romance, but it appears my job is the major focus of the big picture. And I am happy, but I guess I want it all now. I am having a hard time accepting that things take time to grow and develop. I am having a hard time dating. I am having a hard time finding a spiritual church home though I made a ride for tomorrow.
ACE OF ARIEL
It’s your lucky day! New Resources of money, time, or support. My career choice will be very successful, and your ability to manifest your dreams is extremely powerful. You may meet someone soon who can open doors for you! Laying down long-term financial plans is also wise at this time. A very lucrative idea. A promotion. A helping hand. Bright prospects.
I already have money coming in but this seems to indicate I will have either more money or at least support. I am hoping it is support. I need to budget for the future.
by Wenona Gardner
Today Saturday July 16, 2016
I created a reading on my current situation
asking to “Show me what I need to know?”
YOUR CURRENT SITUATION
“Not The Right Time”
This answer is not a “no,” just a “not yet.” Have patience. Your angels will give you a sign when the timing is perfect.
Well I feel off trying to find a place to move too. I just started a full time job and all I seem to do is come after work and go to sleep and not get up until just before work and leave. I have no social life and barely any time to call apartments. I so far called 3 apartments but they were closed so I left messages to call me back. I don’t feel ready to move.
As far as relationship with a guy my friend said I need to develop myself first. Which is not what I wanted to hear. On my birthday I received the New Love card but the only guy who said I was beautiful and attractive was a married man who is taken already. The guys I was interested in both are dating other women. I feel sad and alone.
Spiritually walking the path as a witch is hard because I don’t know how to connect with other witches other than Tumblr and WordPress or hope to run into somebody while at Next Millennium.
I expect my home, relationship, and spirituality challenges to come to an end that conflict will end and that will be replaced with harmony. I want to experience peace. That was what I had hoped when I started working as a Peer Specialist but I became concerned when I treated myself to the movies and I experienced great sadness instead of joy on my Artist’s Date out. I tried watching two movies and treating myself out to lunch and dinner, something that I can now afford to do but I was alone and that made me sad too. I didn’t have a circle of friends to go to Spielbound Board Game Café to play games with. I don’t have friends to take me to concerts and festivals like my co-worker does everytime I see on Facebook. This past week I have been spending most of my money on delivery food at work trying to cheer myself up because I was too sick to go grocery shopping. I have money now but I am still alone. Alone without a relationship, a circle of friends, and a sisterhood of ceremony.
THE HIDDEN INFLUENCES
My co-worker was saying I am afraid of success that I waited too long to look for apartments and I procrastinated to the last minute because of fear. That if I want to go out to festivals and concerts to just do it. I have been dragging my feet. I actually signed up for a ride to go to Unity church even though it’s really early in the morning and it’s very far away. I am proud that I took this step.
“No Need to Worry”
My worries and concerns over my current situation are unnecessary. God and my angels have the situation well in hand, and everything is going to turn out perfectly! Obsessing over this subject isn’t helpful. The energy of fear and worry only slows the eventual manifesting of my desires. I need to visualize loving and happy outcomes and keep my thoughts positive.
Yet, I do worry. I worry that I am going to lose my Region 6 voucher if I don’t get an extension. I worry about living on my own and trying to find a place without the assistance of a caseworker. That I am growing independent and that the support I am used to receiving is no longer there for me. I am afraid that being 43 that I will miss out on having a family of my own and having my relationship. That I am getting older and that because I am having PCOS and not having the ability to give birth to my own children. I am becoming anxious not having a male relationship in my life. Spirituality I spent most of my life desiring to be a Medicine Woman but trying to walk down the path only hurts. Native American people don’t accept me because I look white. I am ostracized by my tribe because I testified against my Mohican father and he is now a registered sex offender for life because of the sexual assault he caused against me and now he can no longer work for the schools he was working at. His family has given me hell to pay which are key leaders in the Mohican tribe. I don’t feel spiritually connected to my Mohican tribe because of it. I am experiencing that. So far I have experienced many Traditional Native Americans are against witches. I am a newly walking the path of a witch and fear retribution from other Christians, Native American traditionals, and co-workers.
I asked what I need to know about my current situation. The first card said not the right time. I don’t feel ready to move. I need an extension. I don’t have a relationship and it doesn’t look like I will. I feel like I am getting resistance to being a witch. I will pull another card to clarify this card.
My situation requires patience. Angels are saying “not yet.” Sometimes Heaven needs a little extra time to make all the pieces fall perfectly into place. What I am asking for has an effect on the lives of others. It can take additional preparation to make sure that everyone’s needs are seen to. Be patient so that all that are involved can have the experience they are meant to have.
by Wenona Gardner
On October 8, 2014
I first told you that I wanted
to live life as a witch.
I began my journey
reading the book To Ride a Silver Broomstick
by Silver Ravenwolf.
I read the first three chapters.
On Thanksgiving Day 2014
I made a major move for true love
to Omaha to be with my spiritual husband.
I began to wear long flowing dresses
and wearing a Celtic Heart because
I believed that I found true love.
But alas I found domestic violence from
his family and a toxic relationship that
triggered two mental breakdowns and homelessness.
It has taken a full year to recover from
that extreme loss and to rebuild my life.
Now I have a full time job as a Peers Specialist
and part of building my new life I have been
longing to explore my spirituality and the
idea of being a witch has resurfaced after
being delayed for a year’s time.
I am a new witch very green on where to go
to meet other witches.
The only place I know is going to Next Millennium
a local spiritual store that carries magickal supplies.
A Druid recommended to me Unity church where his wife went.
I am going to dare to go too maybe I could meet some people
since they said they have Native American people that go there.
I am not interested in herbs and stones so much as I am
interested in Oracle and Tarot card divination.
I seek cosmic unconscious answers to my problems
through wise symbols and artwork.
Basically I am seeking self improvement.
I long for spiritual sisters ones to guide and protect me.
I am looking for a place to move to
and one of the places is near Next Millennium
and Unity church but would be a very long commute to work.
I don’t know where my new home lies and I am experiencing
extreme fears about finding a new home since I am on my own.
Meanwhile I long for a relationship with a man.
I noticed that I have male coworkers that are my friends
that I didn’t have before which is interesting.
My social circle is expanding slowly but surely.
I am trying to stay positive about all the new beginnings
happening in my life that are happening.
Thank you for listening.
White Turtle Rainbow
by Wenona Gardner
Today I scheduled
a ride to Unity church.
A friend recommended
the church to me on my birthday.
I also learned a co-worker
of mine also goes to the church.
I am reading the book
To Ride a Silver Broomstick by
I am on the section in the book
that is talking about the sacred days
of the Craft which is stressing me out.
I love celebrations and want to participate
in them like the Beltane and Yule I celebrated
in during previous years, but they are few and
far between since I last participated in them.
Usually I don’t have money to buy all the festivities.
I usually am alone and I don’t have a sisterhood that
celebrates these holidays with which makes me feel sad.
For example, I spent Midsummer’s Eve instead of around
a bonfire I was on the Internet talking to a woman who
had a bonfire in another country.
She was doing what I dreamed about.
Another woman in another country was celebrating the
solstice in her own way.
I don’t know how to counter the loneliness I feel around holidays.
My birthday was on Monday July 11
and I spent the day with a Druid
who gave me his Robin Wood’s Tarot deck (Witches’ Tarot Deck)
with beautiful illustrations
And we went to Next Millennium
and I bought a Triquetra necklace,
a rainbow pouch with sage, and an amethyst ring.
For the first time I wasn’t lonely and he said I was beautiful
and he was attracted to me but he was married.
He thinks my New Love card I pulled represents him.
Honestly, I don’t see any other prospects around.
It was a very nice birthday though because he shares
the similar spiritual path that I do.