Greetings fellow travelers,
I am happy to report that I have written five out of seven days of Morning Pages. I have been writing a lot about worries and fears. There has been a lot of new and major projects coming up and I am concerned about my ability to be up to the task because I have been sick lately. Some health concerns came up from my recent lab work as well. So a lot of concerns in my mind. I have been praying a lot. I have been participating in prayer circles and will lead a prayer circle tomorrow.
Artist’s Dates have been daily playing Hidden Chronicles. “Unlock the secret of Ramsey Manor in Hidden Chronicles, Zynga’s mysterious new hidden object game. Explore gorgeous scenes to uncover thousands of cleverly-concealed objects, solve puzzles, and find clues that help you unravel the mystery.” I really get caught up in this world and am having a great time unraveling clues and such. Some scenes are very beautiful including the music that accompanies them. I like going there several times.
Synchronicity for me was winning a YouTube giveaway contest. When I sat down to watch who won I just had a gut feeling that I had won. She showed on camera the names written on pieces of paper she put in a hat. I watched her draw a piece of paper and then she read it out loud and it was my name. My name then flashed across the screen in big letters. It was exciting. I am to receive in the mail a St Paul de Vence CD and a print she had took of the Twelve Apostles in Australia this gorgeous oceanic scenary.
Issues of recovery are believing that everything is okay and I will be able to move forward with my plans despite how I feel. I tend to play out worst case scenarios in my head and I am interested in overcoming that with positive thinking and serenity. I have been praying a lot lately.
I am Buffy and I am an artist that follows “The Artist’s Way” by Julia Cameron, a creative recovery program, for the last 16 years. My Native American name is Wabun anung which means Morning Star. The Morning Star guides me in having hope especially in my creative recovery because it’s the light in the darkness that signals the coming of the new dawn.
I was able to write Morning Pages two days this past week. I can’t believe how fast the time went. I had intentions of writing much more. My sleep schedule is off these days. I am grateful I managed to write those couple of days though. They mean a lot to me. I want to strive next week towards consistency.
I have been doing daily Artist’s dates focusing primarily on computer puzzle games. I tremendously enjoy relaxing this way. I like challenging myself to go faster and farther. One puzzle game is about quickly finding hidden objects called Hidden Chronicles. It challenges my memory and reflexes. I have made a lot of progress in this one particular game. I am doing much better than I thought I was. Another puzzle game is matching colored gems together in groups of three or more called Bejeweled Blitz. Playing online games help me to shut the chatter of my mind off.
Synchronicity is that I woke up today bright and early without an alarm and immediately had all these ideas. I began today to post a couple new entries about my creative recovery through my Artist’s Way check in and my latest video of me playing my Native American flute song I call “I’m Home” in my Azurebreeze Creations blog. It would be nice if I could consistently post in my blog including adding videos. I have been very sporadic in my posts for the last three years. Perhaps I can finally use my blog to my creative recovery advantage. I had been thinking about it for some time about what to post in my blog.
An issue of recovery is making sure despite all the people I help in my various Artist’s Way Circles that I make sure to keep my own personal recovery foremost. I have learned to lead by example of my own recovery. When I do a group journey for 12 weeks I am walking right alongside with everybody else doing the journey using the tools, readings, and tasks as well. I don’t sit back while others are doing their recovery. I am right in there working on my own creative issues too.
I am still writing and making videos on YouTube at http://www.youtube.com/user/azurebreezes . I joined a Native American women’s writing group that focuses on recovery. I submitted some of my autobiographical stories there and in another Native American group. I have also been playing my Native American flute. I performed playing my Native American flute at Alverno College. My latest video is me playing a Native American flute song I channeled. I also will be facilitating an Artist’s Way Circle using “Walking In This World” by Julia Cameron.
Native American flute song channeled by Buffy