Wenona Gardner – White Turtle Rainbow

Beaded Bracelet

As a kid, I would go up north to the Stockbridge-Munsee band of Mohican reservation in Shawano, Wisconsin and visit my Mohican Grandmother Gardner. My younger sister Sassafras and I would sit in the backseat of our white station wagon as we rode for four hours to Grandma’s house from Milwaukee, Wisconsin. Our Pow Wow is traditionally in August. The picture shows my cousin Marie dressed in her regalia. While there I was five years old when I received a beautiful turquoise and rainbow beaded bracelet from my Grandmother Gardner. I immediately put it on and wonder of she made it since she does beadwork and had been teaching me to do beadwork on the loom. I remember it was a sunny warm day and running in the forest chasing my cousins. Suddenly, I looked down and noticed that my bracelet was missing. I didn’t have it for even one day. I felt like I lost a precious heirloom. Now when I go to Pow Wows I always look at other bracelets looking for bracelets that look like mine. I never have found my bracelet again it was original.

I agree with you Wil Wheaton. I started November writing my memoir “Mohican Forever! as part of the NaNoWriMo challenge to write 50,000 words in November. I started out strong with 10,000 words but then I hit a massive writer’s block when the election came on Nov 8. I was so upset they announced Trump President Elect though he lost the popular vote to Hillary. I stopped writing my memoir. I was flooded with shock and rage as I laid in bed thinking this was a bad dream. Then I read on social media all the people who were just upset as I was. I have never seen such an enormous cloud of despair that befall the country as I was.

I am Native American and I support the water protectors at Standing Rock. Last night hundreds of water protectors were injured when they had water cannons spraying the water protectors in 25 degree weather. This travesty is happening while Obama is President, I cringe to think what is going to happen if Trump is sworn in to Presidency. Trump doesn’t believe in climate change and is going to favor the oil companies. Obama said he was going to wait to see how things play out, and last night’s tragedy is what happened.

Trump has been battling Native American tribes because of his casinos. Trump refuses to honor tribal sovereignty when he says Native Americans “don’t look Indian.” Each tribe determines tribal membership not based on Trump’s physical judgements. I fear what a Trump Presidency will do for Tribal Sovereignty and how that will affect Native Americans. Obama was given an Indian name by the Crow tribe. I so far have not heard any Indian tribes bless Trump with an Indian name. I fear what will happen to the status of Native American tribes and treaties under a Trump Presidency.

I am concerned about women’s rights as Rose McGowan says Trump has waged war against women and I agree with her. I have Mexican siblings and I fear what will happen to them during a Trump presidency. I have a lesbian sister who is married to a wonderful woman and I don’t want anyone to threaten her or her marriage. I am going home to Wisconsin for Thanksgiving and I am afraid to travel with all the increased hate crimes happening. I am experiencing Apocalyptic nightmares since the election.

I am hoping for a miracle come December 19 with the Electoral College vote. Maryland said as a state their electoral college is voting for Hillary because she won the popular vote. Other states can do this too. Hillary is the most qualified candidate for Presidency.

Your friend,
Wenona Gardner

NaNoWriMo

The National Novel Writing Month is soon upon us this November. I have actually dreamed of writing a novel with index cards with chapters numbered out. I can’t decide whether to write fiction or memoir. In years past I wrote fiction romance stories about romantic love I knew nothing about. I rationalized that if I wrote about romantic love I could manifest it in my life. Instead I have broken abusive codependent relationships that triggered my mental breakdowns. I attempted in 2003 to write my memoir but it came out in a series of poetry. If I could be anything I am a writer. I am mad at myself for not keeping a promise to myself to buy a computer with my first paycheck. I let my coworker talk me out of getting the computer because she said it wasn’t important, but it was important to me. So I have my cellphone and notebooks to work with. I can always use the library to write my words on the library computer. I think when it comes to a draft I prefer to hand write my story and then when it comes to editing to retype. So this October I am planning my writing for November. Anybody out there writing in NaNoWriMo 2016?

Winner!

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I am overjoyed that I won Camp NaNoWriMo this year! I have had an amazing time writing and making friends. My challenge though is keeping in contact with those new friends that I met during camp. It seems that during the Camp everything is so exciting, but once Camp is over campers part and go their separate ways.

by Wenona Gardner

I am so excited! I just crossed the finish line of reaching 100% of my 10,000 word count goal for Camp NaNoWriMo! I was able to successfully cross the finish line even though I have a full time job. I published all of my poetry on this WordPress blog. I feel like a real writer. I have been living on disability for 20 years and I struggled to write a book. But lately I have been writing much more now that I have the structure of a full time job than I did with all the free time I had on disability. I seem to be making much more strides writing than I ever thought possible before.

I am going to continue to write and get a high number. I am excited about the idea of writing more. I crossed the finish line 3 days before the official winning begins and before the 15 days are up for writing.

 

This is my Power Angel Tarot Reading for July 16, 2016. I am doing a Situation Reading of what I need to know now about my current situation?

CURRENT SITUATION

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EIGHT OF ARIEL

I take great pride in my excellent work! Practice makes perfect. I will be getting extra training on July 19 I will be getting first aid and CPR training. It is also recommended I take the Intentional Peer Support state training, and WRAP Facilitator training from Region Six. I also have trainings through work on the July 26. Also well as trainings offered through iNAPS and DBSA Peer Specialist Leadership Center.

The card says I am doing excellent work and to take pride in what I do. That there is great motivation to be a success, and your willingness to invest in your long-term goals will pay off. There is indeed much to learn including seminars and job training.

 

YOUR EXPECTATIONS

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THE WHEEL

I do believe in new beginnings. I anticipate exciting changes coming. I expect prosperous new opportunities with movement forward. While the idea of change can be worrying, I must trust that and know that the Universe wants me to be happy. Unexpected events are meant to point you in a direction that will bring you a more joyful and fulfilling life. I ask Archangel Jeremiel to give me clear understanding where I am headed.

Passing the state Peer Specialist exam and becoming a Certified Peer Support and Wellness Specialist has indeed opened doors for me. I successfully started over with Peer Specialist training, passing the State exam, and getting hired at C.A as a Peer Specialist Now with a steady income I have opportunities that I never had before. I also have a Region 6 voucher to look for a new apartment and I have begun calling places.

 

HIDDEN INFLUENCES

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THE EMPEROR

Hidden Influences are stability and efficiency. I would greatly benefit from the counsel of a skilled mentor who can give me invaluable advice. Archangel Uriel please provide brilliant and new ideas on how to be a success. Time to take the lead. What I need right now is logic and order to help me to feel empowered and to be in control of the direction my plans are taking me. Stability a promotion. Ambitious plans. An encouraging and diplomatic leader.

My co-workers have been training me and giving me new insight into my job. I am growing by leaps and bounds.

 

ADVICE

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KING OF GABRIEL

Keep my eyes on the big picture; leave the details to others. Experience that leads to success. Genuine concern for others. Those around you expect and want you to take the lead. Let your enthusiasm and natural charm shine through. Creativity is the key to a successful endeavor. A magnetic and determined leader. Someone with broad vision who can motivate people to greatness. Inspirational. Generous. Forceful. Ingenuous. Dramatic. Driven. Enthusiastic. Genuine concern for the welfare of all. Unexpected money.

I want spirituality and a love romance, but it appears my job is the major focus of the big picture. And I am happy, but I guess I want it all now. I am having a hard time accepting that things take time to grow and develop. I am having a hard time dating. I am having a hard time finding a spiritual church home though I made a ride for tomorrow.

 

THE OUTCOME

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ACE OF ARIEL

It’s your lucky day! New Resources of money, time, or support. My career choice will be very successful, and your ability to manifest your dreams is extremely powerful. You may meet someone soon who can open doors for you! Laying down long-term financial plans is also wise at this time. A very lucrative idea. A promotion. A helping hand. Bright prospects.

I already have money coming in but this seems to indicate I will have either more money or at least support. I am hoping it is support. I need to budget for the future.

 

 

 

 

 

by Wenona Gardner

 

Today Saturday July 16, 2016

I created a reading on my current situation

asking to “Show me what I need to know?”

YOUR CURRENT SITUATION

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“Not The Right Time”

This answer is not a “no,” just a “not yet.” Have patience. Your angels will give you a sign when the timing is perfect.

Well I feel off trying to find a place to move too. I just started a full time job and all I seem to do is come after work and go to sleep and not get up until just before work and leave. I have no social life and barely any time to call apartments. I so far called 3 apartments but they were closed so I left messages to call me back. I don’t feel ready to move.

As far as relationship with a guy my friend said I need to develop myself first. Which is not what I wanted to hear. On my birthday I received the New Love card but the only guy who said I was beautiful and attractive was a married man who is taken already. The guys I was interested in both are dating other women. I feel sad and alone.

Spiritually walking the path as a witch is hard because I don’t know how to connect with other witches other than Tumblr and WordPress or hope to run into somebody while at Next Millennium.

EXPECTATIONS

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“Peaceful Resolution”

I expect my home, relationship, and spirituality challenges to come to an end that conflict will end and that will be replaced with harmony. I want to experience peace. That was what I had hoped when I started working as a Peer Specialist but I became concerned when I treated myself to the movies and I experienced great sadness instead of joy on my Artist’s Date out. I tried watching two movies and treating myself out to lunch and dinner, something that I can now afford to do but I was alone and that made me sad too. I didn’t have a circle of friends to go to Spielbound Board Game Café to play games with. I don’t have friends to take me to concerts and festivals like my co-worker does everytime I see on Facebook. This past week I have been spending most of my money on delivery food at work trying to cheer myself up because I was too sick to go grocery shopping. I have money now but I am still alone. Alone without a relationship, a circle of friends, and a sisterhood of ceremony.

THE HIDDEN INFLUENCES

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“Take Action”

My co-worker was saying I am afraid of success that I waited too long to look for apartments and I procrastinated to the last minute because of fear. That if I want to go out to festivals and concerts to just do it. I have been dragging my feet. I actually signed up for a ride to go to Unity church even though it’s really early in the morning and it’s very far away. I am proud that I took this step.

ADVICE

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“No Need to Worry”

My worries and concerns over my current situation are unnecessary. God and my angels have the situation well in hand, and everything is going to turn out perfectly! Obsessing over this subject isn’t helpful. The energy of fear and worry only slows the eventual manifesting of my desires. I need to visualize loving and happy outcomes and keep my thoughts positive.

Yet, I do worry. I worry that I am going to lose my Region 6 voucher if I don’t get an extension. I worry about living on my own and trying to find a place without the assistance of a caseworker. That I am growing independent and that the support I am used to receiving is no longer there for me. I am afraid that being 43 that I will miss out on having a family of my own and having my relationship. That I am getting older and that because I am having PCOS and not having the ability to give birth to my own children. I am becoming anxious not having a male relationship in my life. Spirituality I spent most of my life desiring to be a Medicine Woman but trying to walk down the path only hurts. Native American people don’t accept me because I look white. I am ostracized by my tribe because I testified against my Mohican father and he is now a registered sex offender for life because of the sexual assault he caused against me and now he can no longer work for the schools he was working at. His family has given me hell to pay which are key leaders in the Mohican tribe. I don’t feel spiritually connected to my Mohican tribe because of it. I am experiencing that. So far I have experienced many Traditional Native Americans are against witches. I am a newly walking the path of a witch and fear retribution from other Christians, Native American traditionals, and co-workers.

THE OUTCOME

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“No”

I asked what I need to know about my current situation. The first card said not the right time. I don’t feel ready to move. I need an extension. I don’t have a relationship and it doesn’t look like I will. I feel like I am getting resistance to being a witch. I will pull another card to clarify this card.

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“Wait”

My situation requires patience. Angels are saying “not yet.” Sometimes Heaven needs a little extra time to make all the pieces fall perfectly into place. What I am asking for has an effect on the lives of others. It can take additional preparation to make sure that everyone’s needs are seen to. Be patient so that all that are involved can have the experience they are meant to have.

 

 

 

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