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Come to the River of Life

Alright today’s Artist’s Date was to walk into a church I never have been into before. Kinda like church shopping. This church kept coming to me in my dreams and I wanted to investigate to see if it had what I was seeking. What is strange about this church is that it doesn’t have a sign so I had no idea what the name of this church was.  In I stepped in and I noticed immediately alot of handouts on some on a spiritual retreat to find your purpose which I collected and was very interested in. Then I saw things for a women’s meetup which I am also very interested in because I am actively seeking women’s spirituality. I didn’t know anybody there, but I liked the banners that were inside the church and I found  them very eye catching especially the one with the banner above.

The words spoken by the Pastor was intriguing me as he spoke about the arc of the covenant and he talked about getting past the veil and being in the presence of God. So much with what he was saying resonated with me and I strongly felt that I needed to be there. During the music I felt answers to my prayers coming to me and I felt God’s presence so strong around me and in me…I cried so hard during the service. I had never experienced such an intense feeling of God’s presence around me before. I had been quietly asking myself am I to stay or leave this place. I felt all of a sudden I needed to be there. There was something there for me.  I didn’t know what that would be. But so many synchronicities kept coming to me and happening. I felt my soul break open and out poured grief and suffering.  I kept hearing Creator say to me you don’t have to carry this burden alone anymore, give it to me give it all to me. All the pain. All the tears. Everything. I saw in my mind’s eye letting the grief of the recent events that had transpire being passed over.  I felt so connected it was unbelievable. I thought by leaving my former church I was going to wander lost and not know where to go and then all of a sudden in this church in a short amount of time I felt like I was in the right place at the right time.

After I watch some baptisms I remembered my baptism with cedar and water that my Native American  foster mother placed over me saying that Jesus would always be with me when I was 16 years old.  I was about to leave this new church when this woman walked past me and I absolutely had to introduce myself to her. I am so glad I did. I hit it off with her instantly and I was feeling such a deep powerful connection. She just opened up to me and revealed some very intimate and  intense things about herself to me, things that I desperately needed to her. And I found I might be able to help her too. Love those win win situations. I asked her to lunch and she agreed and she took me to a Mexican restaurant. We shared our passion for Mexican food and the Spanish language, she told me she loved to do artwork and wanted to do artwork with me.  She said she loved to paint with watercolors in tubes. We had absolutely so much in common, it was if we were always friends.  I had enchiladas and Jarritos Limon soda which she is already reminding me that I need to watch my sugar cause I am diabetic.  She decided to pay for my meal. I was truly grateful. Than I asked where else would she like to go?  I suggested how about a park? She said sure but she wanted to go back to her home briefly.

Enchiladas and Limon Jarritos

I got to see her home. I noticed she loved pink and purple just like I do.  I shared how as  a little girl I loved pink and as I got older I added purple. It was so much fun to share the same favorite colors. She has this most beautiful painting of the ocean by her father painted on her wall with a purple frame.  I noticed these beautiful pink and purple beaded ornaments she had hand made and she said she could share with me how she made it. I also got to meet one of her cats Gideon. I love the story she told me about how her cat appeared at her home from the street and it went away and she said to herself that if she was meant to keep him that he would come back.  And came back he did. She even showed me the scripture about Gideon in the Bible and it was very interesting story. I gained a lot of insight from it when I read it and how it applied to my own life.

We ended up getting back in the car and we went to a local park that had by the Fox river.  I had only been to this park once before and when I had I just broken up with my fiance in June 2009. I had praying to Creator about letting my ex  go and I said a special prayer for a special man and I told the Creator the truth of my heart, but I asked the Creator what Creator’s will was on the situation. Then I have come full circle and I was back at this same place about a  year later. And I have insight of where I am heading and what I am supposed to do for this special man in my life.  I went to the river with my friend and I experienced the immense peace and calm of her presence. I could feel a ton of tension just melting off my left shoulder and I took some video of the river which I later added me playing the Native American flute. I laid down on my back and let the earth absorb my sorrows and grief I looked up the sky and saw the clouds pass by through the branches of the trees and as I laid there with my arms outstretched out I felt something touched the palm of my left hand and I looked over and I saw a clump of seeds that had fallen perfectly and landed in my hand. I felt what a wonderful gift of new life to be planted in my life.

Love,

Buffy

365 Artist’s Dates

My latest video is titled 365 Artist’s Dates…yes I said 365. I have made a conscious decision to take on 365 Artist’s Dates with ideas inspired by the Artist’s Date Book by Julia Cameron which is a companion volume to the Artist’s Way book. My friend from the online Artist’s Way Circle said that she has been reading about my adventures for the past few days and she said that it sounds like I am on a journey of self discovery. She went on to say that it’s good to hear that my photo sessions and the healing that I undertook that day. She also said that it sounds like a shamanic journey. I find that an interesting perspective. I think I am just having a whole lot of fun seeing everything around me with new eyes. It’s inspiring me to write poetry, paint, sing, and dance. My friend who I call Mom says just remember to rest. Such a mom thing to say. lol

Maybe I am on a sort of self discovery. All I know that is when I begin an Artist’s Date I am consciously inviting the Universe to speak to me. I become very receptive to all the sights, sounds, textures, tastes, and touches that I experience as I go on my Artist’s Way journey. I get really excited about each one I have been doing. So far since I made this conscious decision I am on Day 15 and it has been really helpful for me to really have a great experience. I love it and I am very happy.

I am living a great mystery and I am playing the detective looking for clues everywhere where I can. I am listening and reaching out to new people. I am exploring my world with fine tooth comb. I am using all of my senses for directions. For example in today’s Artist’s Date I left my house and determined my direction randomly by the flip of a penny. The first choice was heads go left and tails go right. I got tails and proceeded to go right. I reached a point after I walked and I discovered that I could go forward tails or go left heads  so I flipped again and turned left when I got heads.  This randomness I found myself walking in a street  I never ventured before.  I noticed this large heart ornament on the front of the house down the block and it spoke to me. I feel like my heart compass is being activated and leading me down the corridors which I find very cool. I am happy about that. I am finding out what matters to me the most.

Another friend on Facebook has been reading about what I am doing and she discovered a quote that she posted on my wall which I find humorous.

I am lost and have gone to find myself

If I return before I come back,

please ask me to wait.

Thank You.”

Another friend however had posted that

“Not all who wander are lost.”

Yes I am wandering sort of as I do my Artist’s Dates and they are quality time with myself which is building self love and self discovery. But I am very much guided by every step I am taking. My ultimate Life GPS system is the Creator who can see everything from a tower and I am on the ground in the forest with a phone and I am calling up asking for directions.  And the directions are coming every step of the way. I feel lead and it’s leading me to myself, true love,  and to home. That’s awesome and I am having a great time as I am on my journey.

Love,

Buffy

The Time Has Come….

Sonia Choquette. “The Time Has Come…To Accept Your Intuitive Gifts! “

Previous recent Artist’s Date:

Okay just so you know I have decided to attempt to do an Artist’s Date everyday for a year.  I believe I am currently on Day 13 using the Artist’s Date Book I think if I increase the amount of Artist’s Dates from one day to 7 days per week things might get kinda of interesting which I want to shake things up. Universe I am ready to open myself and listen!

So, on one of these previous Artist’s Dates I stopped again to my favorite women’s spirituality and wellness sanctuary store and I explored the shop. I discovered  a book called “The Time Has Come to Accept Your Intuitive Gifts.”  It spoke to me … I have been fascinated with sunflowers lately and this cover is adorned with them. I looked up in a book that sunflowers represent happiness, wellbeing, and health.  I could use all three! So lately, as I walk my eyes are caught up by the sunflowers appearing and being given to me in my life.  On my Artist’s Altar that Julia Cameron speaks about in the Artist’s Way I placed cards that I have been given to me  and another one full of sunflowers on a thank you card given to me by a delightful nun I know. I am happy to place the sunflowers on my sacred space. I also have a vase with a large metallic sunflower in my living room. They make me really happy when I see them and they cheer me up.

Anyway, so I went to a restaurant with outside tables and decided to get a steak dinner and Sprecher cherry cola  soda.  Oh yeah and the sun was glowing all around me in this supernatural light and the breeze was blowing through my hair as I listened to the strands of conversations going by me by walking pedestrians and the cars were moving down the street.  The air was singing to me as I read page after page of this “The Time Has Come…” And these are some of the gems that spoke to me.

“A good artist lets his intuition lead him wherever it wants. “ – Lao-tzu

This sounds so much like the Artist’s Way and it doesn’t surprise because I read about Julia Cameron’s life in her creative memoir Floor Sample that she is friends with the author  Sonia Choquette.  I see both their philosophies mirroring each other in their books which I think is beautiful.

“Art arises from the Spirit, and the Spirit speaks through the sixth sense.” – Sonia Choquette

I never heard art spelled out with the sixth sense before but it is something I have recently come to believe is true in my life as the universe is actively and more directly speaking to me now more than ever which I accredit it to my spiritual awakening.

“Very often people don’t so much doubt their guidance as their ability to follow it. This is where friends – the right kind of friends- come in.  Surround yourself with companions who encourage you to trust your inner voice. Keep company with those willing to believe in you. With their help and support , you will come to believe in you as well. “- Sonia Choquette

This really resonates with me right now as I am making major shifts in all my relationships. I am focusing on self love to heal my relationships and strengthen many of them. In others who don’t support my creative dreams I am walking away.

In Julia Cameron’s Artist’s Way 10 th anniversary ed. she has laid out some sacred circle rules on page 222-223. These are the ones that resonate with me the most right now as I weed out people who don’t support my creative dreams.

1. Creativity flourishes in a place of safety and acceptance.

2. Creativity grows among friends, withers among enemies.

3. All creative ideas are children who deserve our protection.

5. Fulfilling our creativity is a sacred trust.

6. Violating someone’s creativity violates a sacred trust.

7. Creative feedback must support the creative child, never shame it.

8. Creative feedback must build on strengths, never focus on weaknesses.

There are several people in my life that I suddenly realized that are outright attacking  me for the creative dreams that I have.  That is completely and utterly unacceptable. The old self would have just quietly taken such abuse and crawled off questioning if I had the right to have creative dreams.  But now since I have been focusing on self love and working with EFT= Emotional Freedom Technique that I am starting to see they clearly are crossing the line. I don’t have to take that. I don’t need to put myself in their way for further such abuse. I love myself myself and yes I am an artist. I am going to live my life pursuing my creative dreams and you are welcome to walk with me especially if you support my creative dreams. I need that acceptance. I need that kind of support. I need the kind of friend that does say I am an artist and I am great. I am truly grateful for the ones that I have in my life that do say that to me.

“Love fuels intuition. The more you love, the more you’ll feel the presence and power of your Spirit guiding your life..” -Sonia Choquette

Love is at the heart of my creative dreams. It’s at the basic foundation of my life and my very being. I love with such intensity and with such fire. I am a very passionate person and it’s what keeps me going.  I love to create loving relationships. I love to co-create with other artists. I love to share my heart with you.

“When you really listen to yourself, you can heal yourself. “ – Ceanne DeRohan

I truly believe that the process of building the self love connection is the powerful catalyst that is transforming my life from all over the place. I am so happy for that.  It’s hard to let go, but I believe that I must empty my cup of thing that no longer serve me  so that I can truly receive the flow of love coming for me.

On a side note and something I thought was cool there was a meteor that came raining down in a thunderous fireball in Wisconsin where I live last night. Here is some footage:

 

Love,

Buffy

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